finally it's been three weeks.. i have finally earned the right to book out on weekends.. it isn't easy, but i'm not someone who gives up easily too.. come on, 6 more weeks!

damn, there's ippt on tuesday AGAIN.. i dun understand, why must we be taking ippt all the time?! it's not that i'm physically unfit that's why i'm afraid of taking it.. it's that i'm always afraid that i wont perform well enough.. something's missing.. the drive, the hunger, the motivation.. i used to think napfa tests was a time to perform, see how fit i am.. but now? even though i can safely say i'll get 5 points for all stations, i'm ALWAYS afraid that my 2.4 timing will not make it below 9.44 mins.. lol.. it's just a phobia i guess.

talking about phobias.. damn, isn't it just irritating to be afraid of things?